Today. The day I dread all year long. The day I kissed my first born child - my only son goodbye. Today, I am thankful for the 5 years, 2 months and 15 days that he was mine.
Erik changed my life.
Erik taught me what love really meant.
Erik brought so much joy and happiness into my life when I thought my life had no purpose.
He was my knight in shining armor.
He was my best friend.
There hasn't been a single day in the past 730 days that I haven't thought about him, missed him and longed to have him back. Even after 2 years, I continue to wake up praying that all of this has been some terrible nightmare. I still have hope that Erik will coming running into the house at any second and throw his arms around my neck.
I long for the day that those sweet little arms are around my neck.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you -
please don't take my sunshine away.
I love you to the moon and back buddy!!!
I miss you so very much.
Your sisters talk about you all the time and I hope that through the stories I tell them, I can make them see what a wonderful big brother you are.