Thursday, July 28, 2011

Anger

I just read this poem on another child - loss Mommy blog.... I have to share it because here lately, this is what I feel....

"Anger"


Don't tell me that you understand,

Don't tell me that you know.

Don't tell me that I will survive,

How I will surely grow.

Don't tell me this is just a test,

That I am truly blessed,

That I am chosen for this task,

Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers

That can only come from me,

Don't tell me how my grief will pass

That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgement

Of the bonds I must untie,

Don't tell me how to suffer,

And don't tell me how to cry.

My life is filled with selfishness,

My pain is all I see,

But I need you, I need your love,

Unconditionally.

Accept me in my ups and downs,

I need someone to share,

Just hold my hand and let me cry,

And say, "My friend, I care."

Poem by Joanette Hendel


Thank you Kellie for sharing!



Thursday, July 14, 2011

Hey! It's ok Thursday!

Wow! What a week!

I've learned that:

It's ok to STILL be grieving the loss of my sweet boy - no matter what my "friends" think.

It's ok to delete said "friend" from FB because honestly, she was never a friend in the first place.

It's ok to eat snickers for breakfast and cereal for supper.

It's ok to not bathe the girls every night - especially since they stayed inside all day and weren't dirty.

It's ok to be me!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Wordless Wednesday











My heart is heavy today. I miss him so very much.



Thursday, July 7, 2011

Hey! It's ok Thursday!

I've learned that it's ok...

-to tell people how I really feel and not give a damn

-to be super bummed that GNO isn't happening tomorrow night afterall

-to not have anything planned for a weekend