Sometimes and Always

Dang, it's been a rough month... and it's only the 7th.  I may or may not make it through the rest of the year...  Anyway.  Now onto my post.

Linking up again with Megan for:


Sometimes: I let the guilt trips people take me on get to me.
Always: I realize that I'm still going through some serious shit and I'll NEVER be able to please everyone.

Sometimes: I would like to get in my car and just drive away and never come back.

Always: The guilt of leaving overtakes my body and I'm forced to deal with life.

Sometimes: I'd like to trade places with the people who don't "get" this life 

Always: I wouldn't wish this pain, heartache, anger and loneliness on anyone!

Sometimes: I find myself getting jealous of couples who haven't had kids yet.

Always: I remember that they are the ones who are really missing out.

Sometimes: I get soooo excited for the girls to be starting big girl school soon

Always: I go back to the school that their brother will never get to experience.  And it pisses me off.

Sometimes: I look at myself in the mirror and can't believe what I'm seeing.

Always: I continue to eat like I haven't had a meal in weeks. :(

Yeah, so this post was a complete downer.... Maybe I'll do better the rest of the week...