Last Wednesday, a reporter from The Index Journal came and interviewed me regarding a scrapbooking event that a dear friend, along with myself are putting together. Up until that interview, I wasn't really feeling the idea of this event. I knew that I wanted to scrapbook - because I love doing it - but I wasn't fond of being behind putting everything together. And then Erin (the reporter) left. That's when it hit me that I'm doing this event for Erik. I'm doing this because I want other bereaved parents to know that they are not alone. They are not alone in their crazy thoughts or their anger or their hurt. I know what they're going through. If one person benefits from Saturday's scrapbooking event, then it was all worth it! Anyway - the article ran in the paper on Saturday and I am in awe at how many people have made comments to me or Kyle about it. They think it's awesome that Sharon and I are honoring our boys this way and I couldn't have been more proud to have done the interview. I just hope that we have a good turn out come Saturday. (PS - If you want more info or would like to attend, email me firstname.lastname@example.org!)
I've been putting scrapbook pages together like mad so that I'll have something to show those that show up. I think I worked on pages for about 6 hours yesterday! Scrapbooking is definitely one of those things that you can get lost in! I had a few breakdowns looking through the many pictures I have of Erik. It absolutely breaks my heart that I'll never take another picture of him. Once I complete his scrapbook, I'll never be able to start on another one.
When I'm working on Erik's book, I have SO many thoughts racing through my head - crazy stuff! I question whether I should label his pictures in the past tense or if I should label them like he's still here. I feel like I should use every single picture I've ever taken of him - whether it's a good picture or not. I feel guilty for putting pictures to the side, but I know it's not realistic to want to use every picture I've ever taken of him. Trust me - that's a LOT of pictures!!!!
Anyway - I plan to get lost in his pictures again today after work. I can't wait to show off my work come Saturday!