I sometimes think the anticipation leading up to a special day is way more nerve wracking than the actual day. Either way, today marks one week until what would've been Erik's 7th birthday. My mind is going a mile a minute because like I've said before, I love to plan stuff. Planning birthday parties is fun for me. Not being able to have a birthday with Erik is about to kill me. I have planned a little get together to remember Erik, but it's not at all what I wanted to do 6 months ago. Those plans didn't seem right and I'm sure I'll regret not doing it after the day comes, but right now, I'm good with what I've planned.
I can't believe that this is the 2nd birthday without my sweet boy. It feels like I'm getting further and further away from him, but I know in reality that we're actually getting closer and closer to meet ing again. I can't wait for that day!
Please keep me in your prayers these next 7 days. I need them more than ever!
2 comments:
Just want you to know I am thinking about you right now and I am praying for strength for you. You are never far from my thoughts. Every time I hear the song you have playing on your blog I think of you and Erik. I hear it a lot when I am in my van driving to my home health care job. I always think of it as Erik's song because I hear it on your blog.
Definitely the build up to a certain days is the worse, at least for me it is. I look at it as I am getting closer and closer till I get to be with my son again, positive way of looking at it. Thinking of you as Sept. 1st comes :(
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