Monday, August 1, 2011

1 year, 8 months, 17 days

That's how long it's been since my sweet boy left this earth. I have missed him every single day that he's been gone.

Since August is here, all I'm hearing about is parents shopping for school supplies or new school clothes & shoes. I would give ANYTHING to be able to buy my sweet boy school supplies and new clothes. He's supposed to be in the 2nd grade this year. I took Kaitlyn & Sienna to the mall the other day and I couldn't help but want to get out of there as fast as I could. The stores were FULL of people and their kids preparing for the new school year. I told the girls that I sure wish I was taking their Bubbie shopping. Kaitlyn looked at me with her big blue eyes and said "me too, Mama". I don't think she had a clue what she was talking about, but she knew that I was hurting.

These last few months of the year are definitely the hardest for me. Erik's birthday and then his Angelversary and then Thanksgiving and Christmas. I can feel my heart breaking all over again and I'm at the point where all I wanna do is crawl into a whole and wish the rest of the year away.

1 comment:

Tee said...

I can't imagine how difficult this time of year is for you. I love you and want you to know that I am thinking about you and praying for you often.