Your sisters turned 4 on Tuesday and I tried so hard to celebrate them, but I couldn't help but think about how your 4th year was the last full year I had with you. It's hard for me to believe that your 8th birthday is 4 short months away. Plans for celebrating you are in the works and I hope you'll see the impact your sweet life has made.
Erik, I miss you so very much. Everything in my life is so screwed up and I find myself begging for it all to be over. I don't wanna do this anymore. I have no fight left. I am so tired and worn down. And I just want you back!!!
I love you Cowboy - to the moon and back!!!