Today, I will step into a psychiatrist's office. I'm finally to the point of not being able to handle grief and still live my life.
I am extremely nervous about opening up to a complete stranger. I am extremely nervous about getting started with my issues and not being able to stop. I am just extremely nervous. I'm shaking as I type this!!! I know. Crazy!!
I've held onto certain feelings and emotions since I was 13 years old. I guess getting all of them out there has completely terrified me.
I know that I need to do this. For me. For Kyle. For Kaitlyn & Sienna. For the rest of my family.
That doesn't make it any easier or me any less nervous.
Ugh. Please pray for me!!
4 comments:
Thinking of you and saying some prayers!
Good luck...thinking of you also!! <3
I am praying and will continue to do so. I am deeply sorry for your loss! I hate that you have to feel the way you do. I hate that you have a child in heaven waiting for you...it really should be the other way around. I often wonder, as I meet other mothers who have lost their children, if my twins meet their children. I like to think that they do...
Ashley, I read your blog tonight for the first time and I am sitting here crying for you and your family. I pray that you can find some peace and comfort and that you can find a balance where you can still honor Erik's memory, but live your life. I hope that you can connect with your therapist and find a way to heal your broken heart. I've learned a lot tonight reading your blog and most of your blogroll. It is utterly devastating what you and they have had to endure. I'm so sorry for your loss and I pray for your healing.
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