Friday, March 16, 2012

Days like today

I'm sitting outside watching my girls enjoy this beautiful day. They're collecting sand and rocks in their buckets and I'm wishing their brother was here teaching them everything he knew about being outside.

You see, this is another "issue" with grief - it haunts you even on the most beautiful and sunny days. Grief doesn't allow you to just enjoy the simple things. Grief brings on thoughts and wishes that are never going to happen.

Today is one of those days where I wish I could forget about the last 28 months and just enjoy what is in front of me. But then again, that's just another dream that'll never come true.

1 comment:

Cassandra said...

You don't know me... I found your blog from another about a year ago. I see your little guy and he reminds me so much of my little guy. Cowboy at heart and always in his cowboy boots with the love of 4 wheelers and horses and always wanting to go faster. The first time I read your blog I cried so much. It set so much fear into me with my Austin and the 4 wheeler. He just turned 4 in October. You are such a strong person. I could never go through losing him or my girls. I come to read your blog every once in awhile just to check in. I hope that with time your heart heals. Know that he is always with you in your heart and will always be your little boy.