Thursday, November 15, 2012

November 15.... again

Ugh, here we are at yet another angelversary.

3 long years.  How in the world is that even possible.  I am definitely living proof that you can, in fact, live with a broken heart.

November 15.  3 long years without Erik.  It just doesn't seem possible whatsoever.  I feel like I was just feeling his little arms around my neck.

December, 2007
Today, I'm choosing to be happy.  Yes, it's been 3 years without half of my heart, but that also means it's 3 years closer to getting to see him again.

And what a glorious day that will be!!!!

My sweet Erik - 

You already know all of the thoughts in my head, but I feel like I have to say them out loud.  I miss you more today than yesterday and less than I will tomorrow.  I love you so very much and I still can't grasp the fact that you're really gone.  You are never far from my thoughts and I am so proud that I got to be your Mama.

You were THE BEST thing that ever happened to me and your Daddy.  You were the best big brother to Kaitlyn & Sienna.

We love you to the moon and back and can NOT wait for our reunion in Heaven.

Love,
Mama


11 comments:

Jenn said...

HUGE ((hugs)) to you!! I am only 2 years into this journey yet I feel your pain. Just know you aren't alone & I am remembering your precious Erik tonight as well. I long for Heaven with you so we can see our boys again!

Amy said...

Every time I looked at the date today, I thought of you and your sweet boy! Hugs!!

brigette said...

Awesomely written!!! Big hugs mama!! Xoxo erik!!

Tesha said...

Praying for you and your beautiful family on this difficult day. I am so blessed to read you had a sweet time of fellowship with your husband. Erick will be forever remembered and loved!

Elle's mommy said...

Thinking of you and praying for joy and peace! Kiss those baby girls and hug them tight! Much love to you!

Nicki

Tracie said...

Thinking of you today, many prayers being sent your way.

Lisa Sissons said...

Isn't it so cruel that we are left wondering if our children are just a thing we imagined?

I'm so glad for you that you had a moment of understanding with your husband. I feel like that real closeness and understanding of each other's grief can only come after time, and so perhaps the three year mark is a blessing is a way.

I love seeing the photos of your little man, and am glad that you have so many memories of him (even though I know even a lifetime would never be enough).

Lots and lots of love,
Lisa
http://dear-finley.blogspot.com

Lisa Sissons said...

Isn't it so cruel that we are left wondering if our children are just a thing we imagined?

I'm so glad for you that you had a moment of understanding with your husband. I feel like that real closeness and understanding of each other's grief can only come after time, and so perhaps the three year mark is a blessing is a way.

I love seeing the photos of your little man, and am glad that you have so many memories of him (even though I know even a lifetime would never be enough).

Lots and lots of love,
Lisa
http://dear-finley.blogspot.com

Jamie said...

Prayers and hugs. Wishing peace and comfort for your mama heart

Mrs. Howard said...

Oh friend, I'm thinking of you. I can't imagine.

Ashley said...

I thought about you a ton on Thursday! :( My family and I released balloons that night in honor of Erik - I have pictures I need to send you. I hope the day wasn't too hard and that you felt your baby boy with you. ((hugs))