Spirit Week
Primary School
Western Day
Cowboy hats
Cowboy boots
Plaid shirts
Trying to tune them out
Walking faster
Quick kisses to 2 unknowing little girls
Fake Smiles
Out of breath
Almost to the car
Door slams
Tears fall
I can't catch my breath
Breathe
Breathe
Gasping for air
More tears
Breathe
Breathe
Mascara smeared
Breathe
Tears
Breathe
There have been a lot of triggers for me during the last almost 3 years. Today, a simple theme at the girls school sent me into a full blown anxiety attack. Almost 2 hours later, my heart rate had finally slowed down and I was able to catch my breath.
Today was awful.
Miserable.
Heart wrenching.
I just want this nightmare to be over.
I want my son back.
I need him.
My heart needs him.
4 comments:
:( I'm sorry.
(((hugs))) It's so hard when we get smacked out of no where with triggers & reminders. Wish I had words of encouragement but know you aren't alone.
Oh I wish, wish, wish that you could have him back.
Those unexpected triggers that come out of nowhere and slam us to the ground.
Your beautiful boy xo
I'm sorry
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