Monday, October 31, 2011

October 31st

I can't believe that today is the last day of October.  Today marks the beginning of the worst time of my life.  2 years ago today we visited Kyle's grandpa for the last time.  3 days later, he was gone.  I am so thankful that I made the decision to keep the kids out a little later on a school night so they could see "Papa".

16 days from today, I said goodbye to my sweet Erik as I walked away from him in the ER.  Needless to say, the next couple of weeks are going to be VERY hard for me.  I felt like this year would be just a little bit easier since it's the second year, but just the opposite is true.  Everything about this year has been harder.  A LOT harder.

Anyway - last year in November, I posted each day about something I was thankful for.  I plan to do the same thing this year.  It really did help me concentrate on what I still have instead of finding a hole to crawl in and mourn what I have lost - although I could probably still do that too.

I hope you'll come back each day and see what I have to be thankful for....


Kelly L Boots said...

Thinking of you always but especially during this extremely hard part of the year.

Ashley said...

Will definitely be thinking of you these next few weeks. ((Hugs))

Cheryl said...

I will defintely be praying for you.

I'll be back to see what you are thankful for. And what a good idea. I thik I might do it on my blog!